Nothing, herself

The past few months I have been learning from Nothing, herself⁣⁣
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Staring at the void while she begs, ⁣⁣
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Stay in me⁣⁣
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Nothing means staring out the window and crying⁣⁣
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Nothing means cooking and letting the energy of my body move through food⁣⁣
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Nothing means reading for pleasure, sometimes⁣⁣
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Nothing means feeling anxious to work and creating more space for nothing⁣⁣
instead⁣⁣
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Nothing means trusting money will appear ⁣⁣
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Nothing means 12 days in the gym⁣⁣
in 4 months⁣⁣
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The more time created for Nothing, the more bodies are able to heal⁣⁣
The more the corners of our wounding are dug up and placed out in front of us ⁣⁣
For examination ⁣⁣
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My body craves her and ⁣⁣
my mind resists her⁣⁣
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I have been not working⁣⁣
I have been learning from Nothing⁣⁣
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Learning to respect her the way climbers respect the mountains⁣⁣
Awed⁣⁣
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The universe may have exploded out of Nothing⁣⁣
That’s how powerful she is⁣⁣
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Business⁣⁣
Is a way to hide from deeper excavation ⁣⁣
Busy ness ⁣⁣
Business ?⁣⁣
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I suspect⁣⁣
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That you claim you want nothing, but you are afraid of it, actually ⁣⁣
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Because surrendering to nothing⁣⁣
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Is terrifying ⁣⁣

 

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