I started crying and the sky started pouring in the darkness⁣⁣
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I opened up my entire heart. I said, these are all the ways you trigger me.⁣⁣
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I said, these are all the ways men have hurt me, have disappointed me. These are the ways I haven’t fully let people in, ever. ⁣⁣
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These are the secrets I haven’t told anyone. ⁣⁣
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These are all the reasons I am terrified of being loved by you. These are the reasons parts of me want to push you away. ⁣⁣
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As I closed my eyes and sobbed the hardest, lightening flashed and it rained harder. ⁣⁣
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He said, it never rains like this in Vancouver⁣⁣
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My tears hit my hair and my bare breasts and I felt like I was the entire earth, crying⁣⁣
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He held my eyes and said, these parts of you do not scare me. I love you more, now. Thank you for sharing your truth. ⁣⁣
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Thank you for sharing your truth⁣⁣
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I wiped my tears and the rain slowed. The glow from the salt lamps filled the room. And we lay on our bellies, staring at the rain through the window

 

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