I chose my healing

I chose my healing
When everything fell apart around me
I chose to open
I chose myself
In the midst of expectations and threats of loss of love
I chose my own journey
When the world said be afraid
I chose to say no, I won’t
When the world said that is impossible
I chose the reality where anything was possible
I chose a life of magic
I chose a love greater than my family system
I chose a life that tastes sweet
A life that blooms around me
I chose a world where I am valued
A world where my gifts matter
A world where magic happens with strangers
A world where people love me
There were many moments where I could have chosen differently
Where I could have said yes, this is the way it has to be
I could have bowed my head and played their reality
I could have shrunk myself smaller and said I’ll protect your feelings instead
I did not want to live a life of their choosing
And I made a different choice
I chose for me
And I chose for my future family
You don’t just stumble into a life of magic
You choose it
You choose in every little moment
You choose it when you let other people down
You choose it when you say the uncomfortable thing
You choose when you are willing to play with life
You choose it
You are the one who chooses to not collapse
You are the one who says I will open
You are the one who says I choose a world like this
You are the one who imagines a world like this
And so it is
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