Here are some hints you have disordered eating:
You would choose to *not eat* a meal over eating McDonald’s
You think some foods are not real food
You feel superior for your way of eating
You feel good about yourself for not eating certain food groups
You are scared of certain food groups
You think eating at night is bad or that you’re only allowed to eat at certain times of the day
You don’t eat breakfast
You think eating til half full is a good thing
You work out on an empty stomach
You think you only “deserve” certain foods at certain times
You won’t eat anything that doesn’t apply to your own personal rules even if it means not eating (excluding real allergies of course)
You judge other people who eat the foods you avoid
It is difficult for you to eat out
You feel like you have to “cheat” on your diet
You are on any type of diet
You regularly are hungry and make or order food but then when it is in front of you you no longer want to eat it
You are secretly proud of yourself for subsisting on less
— it took many many many years for me to believe people when they said this.
My mind was very clever coming up with its reasons.
There are many more signs beyond this post and you shouldn’t take not seeing yourself in this as meaning there is nothing off with the way you eat.